Ringing ears and drama on the dancefloor

Tonight has been a rather strange night, which almost lead to cat fights between girls and girls making out with each other purely for fun (needless to say, Joe was there with phone taking pictures.) But tonight I felt different from previous nights I've been out before. Like many times before, I have attempted to rescue situations when they go entirely wrong. A friend of mine had recently run into a little trouble with someone and was none to happy about everything. I looked after her all night, make sure she did nothing stupid and all the other stuff I do. But tonight, I made a change - I made myself promise I would not get into the mess and attempt to sort out the situation. Instead I would be there just as a friend and not as a hero of some kind.

The question is - why did I do this? Why didn't I attempt to rescue the situation and salvage what was left my friend's friendship with another person?

First of all, I've made myself think that this is not my battle/not my concern. Sure I am concerned for my friend who doesn't feel too good about matters right now, but I refuse to get into it. Secondly, I hardly know my friend's friend, and it was best to keep out of it. Thirdly, I just didn't want to get in the crossfire of everything happening. Whatever happened tonight shall hopefully be resolved by the end of the week.

Tonight also made me realise how lucky I am to have Ashley. The amount of stick I get when people ask me why I keep such a long distance relationship becomes intolerable and I get quite fed up of it. It's hard for me when people refuse to accept my answers and tell me to "play away from home" as it were. But I don't do it. Why? Because I'm in love for the first time and it feels right and special. If people don't understand this, then all I say is fuck off. I'm happy where I am right now in my relationship. Sure it's hard, but it makes it more the worthwhile when you're in love with someone and you know it'll go far. All I say now is, I can't wait for the next few years.

Ashley - you have been ever so patient with me and I'm happy that we're happy at the moment. Sure there are times when we both need picking up, but I'm happy to help you pick you up off the ground and back to normal again. I love you very much and, right now, I don't want to be with anybody else. I'm happy where we are right now, and I can't wait til we move on forward in life. You are my sun, my moon and my stars at night.

Hand in hand we go.