Some news is difficult to handle.

Today has seen many changes in my life.

My old housemate came back to visit with his girlfriend. Before he left us this year after his grandma had died, I had a connection with him. And tonight I found out why. I've realised he makes me feel better about myself. I got on with him so well before he left us, and it was great to see him again today. I feel as though I've lost a great friend, someone who I can talk to about anything. As I leave uni this year, I shall miss him.

As I write this now, tears come to my eyes.

Today, my mother called me to see how things were going. It was kinda like a urgent call, like disaster had struck and there was nothing to do but plan for the future. She had told me about some things related to her health. Although I was half listening, I knew what was going on. I want her to be better and I hope she is. She is very confident in her health, whereas I am not right now. I am scared. Scared.

I don't wanna lose her right now. She is my rock. And I adore her so much as she has taught me a lot about life.

Please Lord...Please help her for me, as I cannot be with her during these days and weeks. Please look after her.

I beg you, for am I scared to lose her.