Remembering things

The last few weeks have been what I've needed, despite breaking down once or twice. But now I can only think to getting a job and almost readjusting to life back in England and perhaps how easy I've had it so far. However, I'm not ready to leave yet. Not just yet. I would do anything to stay out here and earn some money, and perhaps learn a new way of life. But I'm getting way ahead of myself for now.

My time out here has been about finding out about myself and how people perceive me. Although times have been rough, I feel as though there have to be changes in my life and decisions have to be made. But is this a sign of putting too much pressure on myself? Perhaps I'm not putting enough pressure on myself.

To be honest, I am a little afraid of the future...Who isn't? I've finished uni (perhaps do another evening course), graduation ceramony in November (doubt my parents could go), I need to find a job to start paying off overdrafts (and become more financially stable), and I need to grow up (in the sense that I'm slowly becoming mature, but am still immature).

Life throws at lot at you, but in the end, you are in control of your destiny.