The Breaking Point

The problem with job hunting is that it can be thoroughly frustrating, boring which then leads onto 'cannot be arsed syndrome'. Furthermore, when your parents ask you if your friends all have jobs and you say, "They have interviews coming up" or "they already have jobs"....Be prepared for a shit load of comparing, and pretty much how useless you are/you're not trying hard enough to find a job.

Right now I am up to this point.

My dad for the last few days has been saying how useless I am. Well, frankly if I'm that useless I might as well not be here. But I know better than that. So I'm gonna keep at finding a job. And if worst comes to worst, I'm flying back out to Michigan.

Two days I finally booked in for a therapy appointment (they're kinda hard to find in Luton). Myself and Ashley decided it was time - it has been nothing but misery since I've been back in the country. So next week will be my first appointment; I'm kinda excited but I'm more scared than anything else. Why? - Because it means starting everything over again and bringing back all those painful memories. But as the pain keeps building up, I'm sure I'm gonna go numb and nothing will matter anymore.

So wish me luck and bring me away from the numbness.

I don't really have anything else to say. My mind is just slowing down and I really can't be arsed with much for now. I'll be heading up to Sheffield to see old friends that I've left behnd, and maybe I'll look around for some jobs. Which reminds me to head to the careers services.

Hope you're all well.