This is my life
This is an actual entry, rather than an update.
As I sit here crying, I no longer know who I am, or what I've become. These past few weeks have really killed a part of me and I'm having difficulty finding just where to start to fix these problems. Although I'm willing to fight on, the solutions are far from easy to come by.
It just reminds me of being back at uni (if anybody who knows me understands). I no longer feel quite so safe at home and it's hard to understand where I stand in my family.
Ironically, a friend of mine called me today. He reminded me of these people who had committed suicide over the last two years, like he had kept a long list. And now as I sit here crying, I've realised I no longer want to be just another name on a list of those who committed suicide.
That's all I have to say because it practically sums up everything I've experience over the last few weeks.
For now, take it easy. Mellow out. Eat some chocolate.
As I sit here crying, I no longer know who I am, or what I've become. These past few weeks have really killed a part of me and I'm having difficulty finding just where to start to fix these problems. Although I'm willing to fight on, the solutions are far from easy to come by.
It just reminds me of being back at uni (if anybody who knows me understands). I no longer feel quite so safe at home and it's hard to understand where I stand in my family.
Ironically, a friend of mine called me today. He reminded me of these people who had committed suicide over the last two years, like he had kept a long list. And now as I sit here crying, I've realised I no longer want to be just another name on a list of those who committed suicide.
That's all I have to say because it practically sums up everything I've experience over the last few weeks.
For now, take it easy. Mellow out. Eat some chocolate.
posted by Tez @ Tuesday, November 14, 2006
3 Comments:
At 1:41 am,
G.Fischer said…
Hi.
I don't know you, and you don't know me, I was reading blogs at random, and I saw your post.
Just to say, please don't even consider suicide. Life can be bad sometimes, but it can also be very good, give yourself a chance to experience that :) (sorry for the clichés, but I really do feel this way).
Cheer up :)
At 11:43 pm,
Anonymous said…
I hope today finds you in brighter spirits. take care.
At 5:35 pm,
Anonymous said…
Hi Terry,
Its Lisa, you know old next door neighbour Lisa who you thought was from Putney! I'm kind of in disbelief as I read these blogs you have written. What happened to the full of energy innocent mischevious young boy i used to know? I know we havent spoken in years, but it saddens me to hear the shit your'e going through. If you ever want to talk then just get in touch o.k? Depression s a horrible thing and I had a lot of experience with it in my last year of uni. Take care of yourself.
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