The Return
That's right. I think the depression is back now.
I feel like crap yet somehow manage to keep a smile on my face, through thick, thin and silences.
I think I'm just stuck in this position where I can't be happy if other people aren't happy.
This is it. I just know how the rest of my life is gonna pan out.
Do I give a fuck...A little. Just right now i wanna sit in a fucking slump and just watch the world go by. Please don't give me the "Life's too short...etc" crap. Because i just wanna be down. Guess I need a break from being happy.
Hope you're all well and in better spirits than I am.
I feel like crap yet somehow manage to keep a smile on my face, through thick, thin and silences.
I think I'm just stuck in this position where I can't be happy if other people aren't happy.
This is it. I just know how the rest of my life is gonna pan out.
Do I give a fuck...A little. Just right now i wanna sit in a fucking slump and just watch the world go by. Please don't give me the "Life's too short...etc" crap. Because i just wanna be down. Guess I need a break from being happy.
Hope you're all well and in better spirits than I am.
posted by Tez @ Thursday, December 14, 2006
3 Comments:
At 12:35 am,
Anonymous said…
I quite enjoy "down days" sometimes. Aslong as you remember it's ONE day out of your life, it's not forever, it's not even tomorrow. You WILL feel good again.
Is your therapy CBT?
At 12:49 am,
Tez said…
I'm sorry, CBT?
I'm kinda half and half right now about falling back into depression for a down day, then back up again for a happy day.
I wanna be happy but if I'm happy then other people get pissed at me for being so.
I can hardly remember a time when I was happy. I do wanna be happy but I have a long way to go before I cross that point.
Please do tell me your name.
Thanks.
At 12:20 am,
Anonymous said…
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
Helen Keller
"Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt."
William Shakespeare
"Try not to become a man of success but a man of value."
Albert Einstein
"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be.
Now put foundations under them."
Henry David Thoreau
"The best way out is always through."
Robert Frost
"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds."
Albert Einstein
"Nothing contributes so much to tranquilize the mind as a steady purpose--
a point on which the soul may fix its intellectual eye."
Mary Shelley
"Little minds are tamed and subdued by misfortunes; but great minds rise above them."
Washington Irving
"Disappointments are to the soul what thunderstorms are to the air."
Johann C. F. von Schiller
"Happiness depends more on the inward disposition of mind than on outward circumstances."
Benjamin Franklin
"Knowledge of what is possible is the beginning of happiness."
George Santayana
"Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude."
Thomas Jefferson
"To climb steep hills requires a slow pace at first."
Shakespeare
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Because I hear you. Because sometimes I don't know what to say and others are far more articulate and inspirational than I. Because I don't know what to do. Because I want to take some sort of action. Because I don't want you to think I'm standing in your way. Because I know you can defeat this illness. Because I want to support you. Because I want to inspire you. Because I want you to be you. Because I love you. Because I love you. Because I love you. I love you.
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